This last month has been a slump for me (obviously, see the last four posts), but the cool thing about slump is that it has a lot to teach you if you are willing. This was definitely one of those months.
God has so much to say in our small days and moments if we'll just listen, and for Heaven's sake write it down.
How to Have Wide Joy: This is the best illustration for joy I have ever seen. For my kids. For me. For the whole wide world.
Letters from Afar are a delight. You know when you were little and getting the mail was exciting?(as opposed to the junk mail/bills combo now?) This is a $6 a month subscription and you get a beautifully illustrated letter from different places in the world addressed directly to your family, complete with postage stamps. I got it for my kids, but guess who ended up obsessed? It actually is exciting to get these. And then we set it on the counter and wait until we get in our jammies and cuddle on the couch to read it. Such a small thing that brings huge amounts of joy.
The Mountains really do heal. I ran away this month. Twice. Once with my whole crew because we needed a reset. And once by myself, because, as it turns out, I needed a solo reset too. Both times I was in the mountains and maybe the thin air actually is a little clearer because both times we came back better than we left. I'm wondering if the fact that phone service is hard to get in the mountains has anything to do with that?
I Can Be Good at Math and Life. I guard the negative math talk around here like a dragon defending her lair, still though, I feel deep insecurity about math which just exacerbates itself when we are headed to the end of a school year with a kid struggling in math and nowhere near finishing. Is this my fault? Have I not been modeling this right? Should we throw out the books and buy all new ones? Hire a tutor? Quit our entire lifestyle on a dime because of a bad day?!?!?
As usual it's not that the whole life circumstance needed to be upended, but instead, I needed a good mindset shift. I will say, I bookmarked this one because I suspect this won't be the last time I lie to myself about math, or for this matter, anything in life.
Keeping plants alive is not impossible. I'm trying my best to be a plant lady, because all the science is true!!!! (But I still wanted to find out for myself.) All these plants inside really do make me feel happy. But I have always had this terrible black thumb. So I bought them cheap at Wal-Mart (basically I set myself up to fail) and then I did something crazy. I followed the instructions. Shocking I know. I purposely kept all those little tags they stick in the plant and if it looked wilty, I checked the tag and shifted it around accordingly. Some plants just needed tiny bits more or less of light. I also just water once a week, on Thursday. It turns out giving it a day actually helps me to remember to do it.
A New Name can be a Fresh Start. It seems like I've heard lots of people lately talking about how important names are, and I even mentioned that while I love writing on the internet, I'm sick of hearing my own. So over on Instagram I changed my handle. Just a little name change that came with freedom for a much bigger vision. I wanted to connect with something bigger than myself and a name change facilitated that. I'm even thinking about changing the name around these parts. We'll see. The point is, if something feels a little stuck, maybe the shift you need is in the name.