Dear Autumn, I was a terrible parent today. I might as well just throw it out there that we watched two movies, ate ice cream twice, and I can't for the life of me think if I ever even bother to serve lunch. My guts joined the rebellion around 3:00AM this morning and I just couldn't muster the troops for anything.
Whew. Feels good to get that off my chest.
Now on to the good news. We are okay. Like really really okay. By 4:00 this afternoon all the littles where back to themselves (Lily of course never stopped being her energetic self, you can paint that picture however you want.) God is so good. The end of the day was filled with dancing, hugging, and singing. It was a miracle if I've ever seen one.
So here is why you are my hero: at a low moment today E was dissolved into tears and she prayed that God would bring y'all home tonight (needless to say I wasn't winning any favorite person awards at that moment). She walked right up to me and said, "I prayed believing and so God will do it." Let me just tell you now that it took me a good twenty minutes to regain composure and pray about how to respond to that statement. I ended up explaining that sometimes God answers our prayers in different ways than we ask for because He can see the big picture.
I was brought to my knees with my own incompetence. How in the world do you deal with that stuff day in and day out without completely floundering?!?!
I was humbled a million times today and I'm better for it. I pray desperately that you and Brian are hearing from The Lord but I can tell you without a doubt this adventure has grown and stretched me in ways I couldn't have imagined.
Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for giving me this opportunity. Thank you for your faithfulness.