Losing My Mind

I went nuts on my kids.  Absolutely nuts.

 I huffed and I puffed and if the volume of my voice was any measure…I blew the house down.

 That same house I live in with my precious husband, the girls that I suffered through three bouts of hyperemesis gravidarum to receive, and the boys I begged and pleaded across governments and oceans to bring home.

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 Yeah, I brought that house down in one big blow up.

 Noise clanged discordantly throughout the house as my foot landed on a book lying on the floor and I went skidding into the splits. One toddler was jumping off the arm of the couch and my bigs had decided to stand on the cars and skate around the kitchen while I was trying to make lunch.

 It would be easy to explain with five kids five and under, easy to justify in this madness.

Except that call. That call to be Christ-like.

Even to my children. Especially to my children. Even when I’m going out of my mind.

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There has to be a way to overcome the explosion… 

“For if we are out of our minds it is for Christ or if we are of sound mind it is for You.” 2 Corinthians 5:13

Paul knew this life would make us groan, that we would find ourselves laid bare, naked, and ashamed wanting for something more. He didn’t just know it, he felt it behind the prison door which he was so often trapped. 

We look around and find ourselves standing in the ruins of our earthly dwelling. The ruins of t houses we blew down ourselves, knowing deep in our spirit there is something better.

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Out of our minds… 

For God.

“Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee.” 2 Corinthians 5:5 

What if we took those out of our mind moments to groan, to cry out, to remember that its only temporary.

When let our minds dwell on eternity, we will be beside ourselves for God and sane for our families. When we fix our eyes on Jesus, the things of the world do become strangely dim, they cease being sharp enough to cut us.

Hope preceeds us, it clears the road before us. We live for glory even when this life isn’t glorious.

Happy are the people whose strength is in You, whose hearts are set on pilgrimage. Psalm 84:5

Let's be happy people today, okay?

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