You can read Part 1 and Part 2 to catch up! I just don't want that same things other people want. It's not just that I don't want to climb that ladder and keep up with the Jones it's that it actually makes me happy not to chase the "more."
I'm am just now in the process of accepting that the things I want and the spirit God has put in me is different than how it 'should' look.
And now I also know that I'm not alone.
There are lots of people out there who have realized the "American Dream" the way we see in now is just not for them.
I have the great pleasure of communicating with these people either in person or online frequently. They encourage, uplift, support, and advocate. Which I need because as most of us have learned at this point in our lives it's easier to tear down than build up, and heaven knows with each "out there" choice I make for my family there has been backlash.
None of that back lash or none of the support would matter though if I didn't have Russ. Standing firm. Steady, loyal, slow to anger, slow and methodical in his decision making to anchor my heart and walk with me into the middle of Gods will for our lives.
In My Heart lives Jesus...
And I don't want to be a pew sitter, a fence straddler, or Sunday morning believer.
I want to be the hands and feet. I want to love the least of these. Not in a superficial I gave some money and did an outreach way (not knocking it, those things are good and necessary), but in a Give My Life kind of way.
I want to turn the world upside down. That means taking risks. It means angering people and leaving those who won't go with me behind.
What does that look like for us right now?
We might be adopting one. Maybe two. There will probably be special needs involved. Most likely (from the babies home we are working with) this will be HIV positive.
Expect to hear a lot from me about HIV. Someone took the time to educate me so I'm going to take the time to educate you.
I will also answer some of the concerns we have had from others as well as fears we have faced our own lives heading into these changes.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7