When You're Homesick at Easter

I have a confession to make: I'm struggling to find Easter.  This is usually my holiday. My birthday was sandwiched right between Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday. I made it here just in time to celebrate that first year of my life. This is the one that I cry through, the one that gets deep  in my soul. 

I think as a general direction right now we are in a generations of believer that is fighting through our faith...fighting for our faith. We are finding our feet as group and from what I've seen? We're doing a great job of doing it together. 

So it's kinda weird for me to just say, while I may be struggling with bigger-picture issues of faith on this earth, I'm really just dancing in a Holy Romance with my Savior right now.

I'm in a sweet spot. 

I think I don't miss Easter much because I really have been living this celebration for months now. What I do miss are the big feelings and connection to this holiday.

But I found it today. Today on this Good Friday...I'm homesick. 

I've never been more aware that this life is a pilgrimage and I'm homesick for Heaven. Not in a morbid and desperate way. In a way that makes me hungry for the feast of His Word, in a way that makes me hopeful for tomorrow. 

The only thing that assuages my homesickness is His Presence. Feeling my Holy God draw near to my broken self on this broke earth is best balm ever for this affliction of Holy Homesickness.

About three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?" (which means "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?") Matthew 27:46

If I'm homesick for a place I've only dreamed about then I can't imagine how homesick Jesus felt. How His heart ached for His Father while walked His pilgrimage through this Earth. 

Soothed only by the balm of His constant presence. 

Eli, Eli, Lema Sabachthani? 

My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?

Why? WHY?

So that we could live with hope in our homesickness. So that we could be filled in our hunger for more of Him. So that we could be always near to God. 

His father turned His face away so that we could look in his face. The son was forsaken by the father so that we could be adopted as sons. Jesus was empty of the presence of God so that we could be filled with the Holy Spirit. 

Why?

But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus.

Rich in mercy.

Because of Great Love. 

Made Alive. 

Seated us with him in heavenly places. 

He was forsaken by His father. Turned away from. Rejected. 

Why?

Love. Deep, powerful, life changing love.

So that we could have the hope of heaven.

Today, Good Friday, let's take a minute to draw near to God and whisper our thanks for His nearness. Let's not take for granted what we available, but instead worship by the very act of taking advantage of what He did for us. 

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